I am doing research in Peds/Genetics and have spent the last 3+ hours calling random IT departments and EMR specialists in order to gain access to the patient database I need to do my research. It is impossibly ridiculous. As much as I understand the need for patient privacy, etc., it seems the various checks/boundaries have left everyone confused... and me, bored, sitting at a coffee shop, blogging.


I've already ordered diapers, those organic-Mom MD sunscreen wipes b/c putting on sunscreen lotion before swimming has already left all my carpets and couch and clothing smelling like the beach at the end of a long day, and extra wipes. And some of the cute shorts and cover ups featured on the ad on the side to replace the collection of clothing we left drying on a rack in Israel. So, I guess it's been productive.

We went to Israel last week to visit my husband's family. The trip was amazing. For the entire trip I was like a SAHM, with my baby (who is now a toddling, talking 13.5 month old) ALL DAY, and I LOVED IT. I really had so much fun just being around her, playing with her, watching her interact with the world, her cousins, her grandparents, a new atmosphere. It was so perfect. But I knew, I could not do this forever. I love school, talking to adults, using my brain. Since it was only a 10 day vacation, I thrived, but I knew I could not be at home with her forever. That may be the reason I feel so conflicted.