We went to Israel last week to visit my husband's family. The trip was amazing. For the entire trip I was like a SAHM, with my baby (who is now a toddling, talking 13.5 month old) ALL DAY, and I LOVED IT. I really had so much fun just being around her, playing with her, watching her interact with the world, her cousins, her grandparents, a new atmosphere. It was so perfect. But I knew, I could not do this forever. I love school, talking to adults, using my brain. Since it was only a 10 day vacation, I thrived, but I knew I could not be at home with her forever. That may be the reason I feel so conflicted.